當(dāng)我們有足夠的意識(shí)來(lái)突破對(duì)痛苦之身的認(rèn)同時(shí)，它將會(huì)變成什么樣子呢？
無(wú)意識(shí)創(chuàng)造了它，意識(shí)將它變?yōu)樵巍ＪケＡ_優(yōu)美地說(shuō)出了宇宙的原理：“萬(wàn)物在光明下無(wú)所遁形，同時(shí)萬(wàn)物在光的照耀下都會(huì)轉(zhuǎn)化成光。”就像你不能向黑暗宣戰(zhàn)一樣，你不能向痛苦之身宣戰(zhàn)。這樣做會(huì)引發(fā)內(nèi)心的沖突并創(chuàng)造更深的痛苦。所以觀察它就足夠了。觀察它意味著接納它成為當(dāng)下時(shí)刻事實(shí)的一部分。
痛苦之身由受困的生命能量構(gòu)成，這種能量是從你總的生命能量中分離出來(lái)的，它通過(guò)思維認(rèn)同的反自然過(guò)程暫時(shí)地取得自治權(quán)。它變得反對(duì)生命，就像動(dòng)物試圖去追自己的尾巴一樣。你認(rèn)為我們的文明為什么已經(jīng)變成了一種自殘的文明？但是即使自殘的力量也仍然是生命的能量。
當(dāng)你開(kāi)始不再認(rèn)同痛苦之身，而成為觀察者時(shí)，它還會(huì)繼續(xù)掙扎一段時(shí)間，同時(shí)還會(huì)試圖讓你再度與它認(rèn)同。雖然你不再通過(guò)認(rèn)同它而給它能量，但是它還是會(huì)保持一定的動(dòng)能，就像轉(zhuǎn)動(dòng)的輪子一樣，即使你不再推它，它也會(huì)因?yàn)閼T性繼續(xù)轉(zhuǎn)動(dòng)一會(huì)兒。在這個(gè)階段，它會(huì)在你身體的不同部位，制造一些痛苦或不適，但是這些痛苦不會(huì)持續(xù)很久。你需要充分地保持注意力，以便直接地觀察痛苦之身并感受它的力量。這樣，它就不會(huì)再控制你的思維。當(dāng)你的思維被痛苦所控制時(shí)，你就會(huì)再次與它認(rèn)同，而痛苦之身就會(huì)再次通過(guò)你的思維獲得生存。
比如說(shuō)，如果憤怒一直左右著你的思維，你不停地在想別人對(duì)你做的事，或你將要對(duì)別人做的事，這時(shí)你就無(wú)意識(shí)地被痛苦所控制了，痛苦之身又成了“你”。在有憤怒的地方通常就有痛苦埋伏在其下。或者，當(dāng)你心情不好時(shí)，你開(kāi)始有了很多消極的思想，并不斷地想你的生活是多么的糟糕，這時(shí)你的想法就和痛苦之身結(jié)合，你就會(huì)無(wú)意識(shí)地被痛苦所控制，也很容易遭受痛苦之身的攻擊。此處我所說(shuō)的“無(wú)意識(shí)”，是指對(duì)某個(gè)思想或情緒模式的認(rèn)同。它隱含的意思是：觀察者的完全缺席。
持久而有意識(shí)的關(guān)注切斷了痛苦之身和思維之間的橋梁，它會(huì)帶來(lái)轉(zhuǎn)化。也就是說(shuō)，痛苦成為你意識(shí)火焰的燃料，結(jié)果是意識(shí)之火燃燒得更加猛烈。這就是古代煉金術(shù)的深?yuàn)W意義：將金屬變成金子，將痛苦轉(zhuǎn)化為意識(shí)。內(nèi)部被分裂得創(chuàng)傷被治愈，你又成為圓滿的。這樣，你接下來(lái)的責(zé)任就是不再創(chuàng)造更多的痛苦。
我來(lái)總結(jié)一下這個(gè)過(guò)程：將注意力集中在你內(nèi)心的感受上，了解到這就是痛苦之身并接受它的存在；別去想它，別讓你的感受變成了大腦和思維，不要去評(píng)判或分析它，別在其中尋找你自己的身份認(rèn)同；保持臨在，繼續(xù)觀察你的內(nèi)在；不但覺(jué)知到你情緒上的痛苦，更要覺(jué)察那個(gè)沉默的觀察者。這就是當(dāng)下的力量，這就是你自己有意識(shí)的那種臨在的力量。然后，請(qǐng)看看接下來(lái)會(huì)發(fā)生什么事情。
What happens to the pain-body when we become conscious enough to break our identification with it?
Unconsciousness creates it; consciousness transmutes it into itself. St. Paul expressed this universal principle beautifully:. 'Everything is shown up by being exposed to the light, and whatever is exposed to the light itself becomes light.' Just as you cannot fight the darkness, you cannot fight the pain-body. Trying to do so would create inner conflict and thus further pain. Watching it is enough. Watching it implies accepting it as part of what is at that moment.
The pain-body consists of trapped life-energy that has split off from your total energy field and has temporarily become autonomous through the unnatural process of mind identification. It has turned in on itself and become anti-life, like an animal trying to devour its own tail. Why do you think our civilization has become so life-destructive? But even the life-destructive forces are still life-energy.
When you start to disidentify and become the watcher, the pain-body will continue to operate for a while and will try to trick you into identifying with it again. Although you are no longer energizing it through your identification, it has a certain momentum, just like a spinning wheel that will keep turning for a while even when it is no longer being propelled. At this stage, it may also create physical aches and pains in different parts of the body, but they won’t last. Stay present, stay conscious. Be the ever-alert guardian of your inner space. You need to be present enough to be able to watch the pain-body directly and feel its energy. It then cannot control your thinking. The moment your thinking is aligned with the energy field of the pain-body, you are identified with it and again feeding it with your thoughts.
For example, if anger is the predominant energy vibration of the pain-body and you think angry thoughts, dwelling on what someone did to you or what you are going to do to him or her, then you have become unconscious, and the pain-body has become 'you.' Where there is anger, there is always pain underneath. Or when a dark mood comes upon you and you start getting into a negative mind-pattern and thinking how dreadful your life is, your thinking has become aligned with the pain-body, and you have become unconscious and vulnerable to the pain-body's attack. 'Unconscious,' the way that I use the word here, means to be identified with some mental or emotional pattern. It implies a complete absence of the watcher.
Sustained conscious attention severs the link between the pain-body and your thought processes and brings about the process of transmutation. It is as if the pain becomes fuel for the flame of your consciousness, which then burns more brightly as a result. This is the esoteric meaning of the ancient art of alchemy:, the transmutation of base metal into gold, of suffering into consciousness. The split within is healed, and you become whole again. Your responsibility then is not to create further pain.
Let me summarize the process. Focus attention on the feeling inside you. Know that it is the pain-body. Accept that it is there. Don't think about it — don't let the feeling turn into thinking. Don't judge or analyze. Don't make an identity for yourself out of it. Stay present, and continue to be the observer of what is happening inside you. Become aware not only of the emotional pain but also of 'the one who observes,' the silent watcher. This is the power of the Now, the power of your own conscious presence. Then see what happens.
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